Tired
I’m tired of waiting
Therefore, I shall wait no more.
Yea, He said, "I will, don’t worry…" with that carefree yet ironic grin of his.
Months passed by…
Nothing came I can’t do this anymore!
Waiting for someone that isn’t even there.
It had never been there in the first place.
How can I be so stupid?! So naive. . .
Dense even!
He will never come to me Never.
He doesn’t want me at all.
He never has.
And now, I’ve lost all hope
I’ve lost my will to love again
My confidence to admire
My voice…
My soul has been wringed out from my aching body
My hopes to dream
All is lost
- Hoshi
02-08-05
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memories roll in of the things you once did
and who you had shared them with somebody thinking of you
did I bother telling you this with the words that cross teeth and jump lips
a poor choice of words in wanting to tell you anything
but words don’t come with ease they’re forever my hurt
would It really matter if you were to count the days left with your hands
your focus secure and the loves you left well
smiles staged in photographs here until
you left the light on
theres a chance I might have tripped girl
you were there to hold on
ignoring the words of your obnoxious little brother
kill or be killed spilled the words from your mother
I’ll lay awake for a while
I’ll leave the light on a while
you couldn’t last a lifetime caught between here and the days of it
carving her name across your arm with every wish its hit or miss her
I told you so I measure distance in lines departing the rest of my lyf
This Moment
Bare feet, on the cold fallen snow
Hair blowing in the furious wind
You’re waiting, watching me
We shouldn’t be here right now
Your walking closer but I’m staying
Staying behind these protecting walls
I wont look you in the eye, not this time
I wont let you see into my soul
How is it, you can make me feel so excited?
But so afraid at the same time?
I’m feeling nervous, knowing your going to touch me
Knowing I’m going to fall into you
I feel exposed, my body bare
The cold air attacking my flesh
I fall weak into your arms
Once again, I feel the warmth from you
We shouldn’t be here right now!
Too much fire will burn our skin
Touch much pain will injure our hearts
This moment wont last forever
Things will turn dark, like the night
And tears will fall like the rain
Our hearts will become cold
Just like the snow around us
We’re going to fall
So much further than every before
But maybe, just for this moment
We can pretend
We can pretend we’re allowed to do this
Allowed to be here, to touch
Maybe for a moment
All our worries will just disappear
We can stay like this for a while
Me in your arms, you holding me close
And everything, everything will be ok
For this moment.. And this moment only
We can be… in love
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